Friday, August 26, 2011

Identity Interlude 5


I love the scent of the dead leaves in fall, the evergreen trees in winter, the damp earth in spring, and the lilacs in early summer

My favorite time of the year is fall. The temperature is just right and I love Halloween; the costumes (I’m adept at sewing so I get to make my own), the decorating, and the pumpkin carving. It’s just plain fun…  

I like being outside, and I very much enjoy wandering through the parks and other wooded areas around here… very pretty, very peaceful

I like most animals… except birds….

Among the animals I find most interesting are wolves (surprise), spiders, goblin sharks, cuttlefish, jelly fish and angler fish     

While on the subject of animals, I should mention my fish. I talked about them before, when they were still alive… They’re dead now. I killed them last night… Don’t know why I did it… I thought I was asleep and dreaming as I took them out of the water one by one and watched them die
Slendy was there at the time… Did he make me do it or have I gone that insane? I don’t think I’m insane, at least not in the out of control, don’t know what I’m doing kind of way…

If he did, then why? Is he just messing with me? Trying to prove a point? Did he require some kind of sacrifice? Did he just really want seafood?

Heh… If that’s the case, then I could have gotten him some fishcakes or cod tongues instead

I don’t think I did anything to anger him… Maybe he just knew that watching them swim calmed me and that’s not a state he wants me to be in right now…

Ah well, as long as he’s still on board with the plan, it’s fine. I’m not even surprised that they wound up dead… He doesn’t have a good history with pets, after all. I’m just curious as to his motives here, especially in having me do it …

Hmm this post seems to have gone off the rails

13 comments:

  1. I'd say he did it in his normal fashion: to torment. He normally likes his proxies unattached, though. No pesky thoughts while on assignment. No "Did I feed the fish before I left the house?"

    Just my two cents.

    -Dia.

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  2. Haha you're probably right... It just seemed so odd to me... You know, a being with that much power and using it to take out tiny fish hehe

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  3. Tiny fish are things that made you happy, made you peaceful. Not so tiny when you think about it.

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  4. I suppose so...

    It was probably for the best anyway. Considering what might happen to me soon. I might not be around to feed them and that was quicker than starvation

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  5. KnitWolf- Sorry about your scaly friends. I'm not good with pets either.

    I'm biding my time with the skinny one.



    Until Next Time.
    Me.

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  6. Thanks sunshine, though I'm hardly broken up over it. More mildly annoyed and slightly confused.

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  7. Sunshine. I like it. I think his nicknames are rather funny. :)

    I've been told that's why Runners don't keep pets.

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  8. Glad you like the nicknames, bright sky :)
    I have my reasons for calling him by those names. I'm pretty sure you could guess what they are by now

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  9. You're sweet. And yes... I think I can. Those tattoos of his are rather fascinating, on another note. Any chance you'll tell me about yours?

    Let me know if it's the pins or the needles someday. I'll be sure to remember.

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  10. Dia- I"m glAd you enjoy my tattoo's. My word's do them no justiCe. They all have specific meanings to me.

    KnitWolf- What are your reasons for my nicknames dear?

    Until Next Time.
    Me.

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  11. Bright sky- I've already spoken about them, just not here.

    Sunshine- So you haven't guessed then? Hehe

    I call you sunshine because you have been something of a ray of light to me. As I said in a previous post, if it weren't for you and Skinny Boy I would probably be dead right now. Also, these conversations help me stay at least somewhat sane and to keep going through all of this.

    I call you bittersweet because being in contact with you has also been a mix of pleasure and pain. The conflict you caused in me was painful but necessary. I believe that my addiction to you contributed to my situation with Slendy. You help to bring out the worst, most (self)destructive parts of me and, as I said, you helped in keeping me alive

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  12. KnitWolf- I'm your Catalyst.

    Until Next Time.
    Me.

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