I made some Xmas decorations. They weren’t anything fancy, just some popcorn garland and paper chains but it was nice and festive. I got Hart to help put them up earlier. He even started to lighten up a bit while we decorated. The Wolf just went about her business, cleaning and sharpening one of her knives. When we were done, I pulled her away from her work. I asked if she liked the decorations. She said she didn’t see the point of it.
I fucking lost it. I just felt so frustrated, I couldn’t stop myself. I hit her again and again. I told her that she was a fucking hypocrite, that she was pathetic. I called her every name in the book and even invented a few new ones. I told her that I hated what she had become, that I was tired, that I needed her back and that I loved her.
She took every hit, just staring at me with those fucking dead eyes until I stopped. Her expression didn’t change except for one tear that rolled down her cheek. Then she turned away and went right back to her work
I’m stuck and I don’t know what the fuck else to do
Anyway, Merry Xmas and Happy New year ya shit fucking bitch hamsters