Tuesday, July 24, 2012

So Tired

Don’t know how to begin. I meant to make a post last night but…..
Sunshine was online… My Sunshine… He was drunk
He said he didn’t know what was real. Said he had a gun. He wanted to die
Told him not to… To put the gun down and sleep
Told him I loved him. Told him he was not just a “cancer” as he had put it
He started taking painkillers. And he was drunk
I begged him not to but he did
Broke my heart… Told him he was breaking my heart

I don’t know if he’s dead or alive
The last thing he said was that Ritter was taking hold of him
Was holding him down

It’s funny it’s so funny I never thought that he could really hurt me…
Cause me some physical pain? Kill me? Sure. But never really hurt me
But he did…. by hurting himself

I can only hope he’s still alive and still himself…

Guess you were probably expecting a different post
I’ll get to the recap of the days since my last post as soon as I can
Just can’t do it right now

1 comment:

  1. Wolf....I'm here if you need to talk. I think I speak for the whole house when I say that we love you and we're hoping for the best.