I remember what I’m supposed to do… It came to me while I was asleep.
Ritter told me, back when he took me; when I knew most keenly what it was to lose myself.
It was among the other compulsions and intents he filled my mind with.
I also know why he’s been keeping me here like this….
My dear employer was giving me time to remember it on my own; to let my mind heal itself
But of course, that isn’t the only reason… Oh Hell no
This was a threat to ensure that I would do as ordered. He could just keep me here like this forever if he wanted to… He could also make things much worse. .
I… I don’t know if I can do it
Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t gone soft. If he wanted me to kill someone, wonderful. Torture in and of itself would be just dandy too, be it for information or for its own sake.
I know there are others who do this kind of thing… and I don’t judge them for it, for various reasons but this new task carries bitter memories for me
I think Ritter knows that… Probably why he wants me to do it
I need to think about this