Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas, I don’t want to fight tonight

I made some Xmas decorations. They weren’t anything fancy, just some popcorn garland and paper chains but it was nice and festive. I got Hart to help put them up earlier. He even started to lighten up a bit while we decorated. The Wolf just went about her business, cleaning and sharpening one of her knives. When we were done, I pulled her away from her work. I asked if she liked the decorations. She said she didn’t see the point of it.

I fucking lost it. I just felt so frustrated, I couldn’t stop myself. I hit her again and again. I told her that she was a fucking hypocrite, that she was pathetic. I called her every name in the book and even invented a few new ones. I told her that I hated what she had become, that I was tired, that I needed her back and that I loved her.   

She took every hit, just staring at me with those fucking dead eyes until I stopped. Her expression didn’t change except for one tear that rolled down her cheek. Then she turned away and went right back to her work

I’m stuck and I don’t know what the fuck else to do

Anyway, Merry Xmas and Happy New year ya shit fucking bitch hamsters 

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  2. Sorry things didn't work out with making Wolf come out of her funk. But hey, getting her to shed a tear must mean you made some sort of progress.

    -Raggedy

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  3. I hope so

    I really fucking hope so

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