I’m not going to tell you where I brought him or where he
disposed of his collection; just that he is no longer a holder and he is no
longer here. These past couple of months have not been easy. In addition to
learning how to fight the destructive influence of the items; to resist the lure
of those feelings of power and false hope that they gave him, I have been
trying to help Roy overcome the guilt and grief that was weighing him down. He
isn’t completely clear of the latter yet, but I understand….
There
are some things that one just can’t let go of
Back
to the point, we both knew it was time for him to stand on his own. I have done
all I can for him and whatever path he takes now, is his alone to travel.
Don’t
get me wrong- Despite the difficult situation I did enjoy his visit and
I was sad to see him go.
Good
luck, hero. Remember what you have learned from all this and use it to avoid
repeating old mistakes.
Can't say I care, but tis good to see that even despite different allegiance, you were ready to help him out. This is what makes you different from all those other "Servants". Tis why I respect you, you don't serve, you are following a path which you know is yours.
ReplyDeleteI couldn't do anything else, nor would I want to. I have been down the path of hollow servitude before and I have not, can not and will not allow myself to be controlled like that ever again. I do still consider myself loyal to Ritter. I have done and will continue to do my job to the best of my abilities, but he has to deal with the fact that I have loyalties and values outside of his will.
DeleteThat's the way to go about it, as I said, you serve because you want to. However, I just realized something, I never asked you, why DO you serve Marshmallow? There has to be a reason.
DeleteI have had several reasons to serve him since I began, Calavera. At first, my reason for serving him was simply that of fear. Slowly but surely the reason became self-destruction and revenge; then curiosity and a sort of amusement. I wondered why he was keeping me around. I was nothing special, after all. I had no training and when he first came to me I was broken and passive. I wondered what he could possibly have in store for me so I wanted to stick around and find out.
DeleteThen there was my sense of responsibility which I still have. When I take on responsibility for a task, it is very VERY difficult for me to just walk away from it. I have accepted the role of Proxy and thus, I have accepted the responsibilities and duties that go with it. As important as this is to me, this alone would not be enough to keep me loyal.
There is my sense of gratitude. There are so many experiences that I wouldn’t have had without him and Sunshine. Ritter has also given me a relatively nice place to live and has made it easier for me to do what I do.
I have become accustomed to his company. I can push his song out of my mind when I want to now, but most of the time I let it stay. Even with Skein talking to me, it still feels kind of lonely in there without Ritter singing away.
Serving him has brought me into the Proxy family. With the exception of Carmine, the proxies I have come to know have treated me with more respect and kindness than most of the “normal” people I knew before Ritter appeared.
Also, our goals match right now, albeit for different reasons
Oh, and the euphoria that I feel when he is pleased with my work is a nice touch too
Thanks to Sanna, I kno what’s happening to me now.
ReplyDeleteI kno wyour not going to tell me anything about that if I ask so I wont.
How perceptive. So why are you here little lamb?
DeleteI just want to know if Peter is ok
DeleteNo one here by that name, little lamb.
DeleteHeh... Have you been dreaming again?
No and I wasnt before! Stop lying to me!
DeleteI'm not lying to you. Don't hurl accusations at me like that. It's rather rude. Remember your manners, child, and choose your words carefully
DeleteOk fine. Roy said you had a pet hollow right? Could you tell me how that hollow is doing? Please?
DeleteVery good.
DeleteTo answer your question, Monster is doing as well as one in that state can. We keep him clean, fed and clothed. He also has a small cot to sleep on. I tell him stories sometimes, but he doesn't take much interest in them, or anything else for that matter. Well... except for one of my dolls. He seems to have taken a liking to one of the Ritter dolls, so I'm letting him hang on to that.
Not sure why you are so concerned about him. He is a servant of Satan, after all, and thus is bound for Hell with the rest of the Proxies; with all of those who "bear demons". Isn't that right?