Thursday, April 2, 2015

Following her path


I’ve been working hard
Both of us have been

I’m trying to do what the Wolf would do and what she would want me to do.
It hasn’t always gone over so fucking well, but I’m trying

I’m still knitting those dolls, those fucking little tributes to the Tailor  

The Wolf always took pride in those. They were important to her because HE was important to her.

He was important to her and so I keep following his orders

The orders of the one who sent the Wolf to die

I keep following his orders because the Wolf cared about him for some fucking reason

Too bad for her that the feeling wasn’t fucking mutual huh?

I think I told you before that I keep going this way for Hart’s sake too. As if we’re any safer this way.

If he was willing to kill the Wolf when it suited him, he’d do the same to us.

I know this. I knew all this before, but I keep following orders because it’s what the Wolf would do

He was important to her so I have to treat him that way

It’s one of the ways I’m keeping her alive
By serving the fucker who killed her

23 comments:

  1. Pardon for intrusion, but isn't the process of keeping one alive, who has passed on, believed to be through memory, rather than continuing what the person which passed on was doing?

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    1. It’s both. You remember the person and if there is something that was really fucking important to them, you do your best to fucking preserve it.

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    2. Important you say?

      Do you believe that serving Slenderman was the most important thing for her? Have you considered that there might have been something else that drove her to continue working for it?

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    3. No, it wasn't the MOST important fucking thing, but it was still up there. I think she worked for him because she wanted to. She always said she liked him and she was grateful to the fucker because he gave her a place to live and work and a family that actually treated her like a god damn fucking human being for once, so it made it worth it to her, no matter what shit he put her through. I know she fucking died to protect us, to save us from that thing, but I think she did it to protect the Tailor too. If it was just about us then she would have taken us and fucked off before he ever gave her that order or the power to do it

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  2. You're in an unfair situation. But life is rarely fair. To anyone, even to those people who are so blissfully ignorant of the things that are truly around them. Though their problems are much more trivial.

    I think...you are doing the right thing. Keeping the memory of her alive by serving that....thing.

    It's nice seeing a post from you every once in a while, to know that you're still alive. Keep yourselves safe. For my own sake as well as your own. I don't know what I would do if I lost what little friends I had left.

    Ah, I'm rambling again. As always, take care.

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    1. ...Thanks

      I just want to make her proud

      Don't worry about us. We ain't planning on fucking dying just yet

      You just keep yourself breathing too motherfucker

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  3. What would you do to get your Wolf back?

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    1. Fuck off

      I don't have time for more of this fucking bullshit

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    2. Violent. You do not want to kill the one who took her?

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    3. I don't want whatever bullshit lies you or the birdshit down there are selling!

      And I don't want the Wolf to be part any shitty experiments!

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  4. What would you do to get your Wolf back?

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    1. The question you ask makes me assume you can bring people back to life (or you at least think that you can).

      Am I right in this assumption?

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  5. I don’t understand you Fell. You know the Wolf died willingly to protect you and Father, yet you accuse him of killing her. You blame Father for the Wolf’s death, yet you rail against the servants who will do his work by bringing her back.

    Well if Father is guilty of killing her, then I think you share in that guilt- no! Even more so because you can’t restore her life

    Instead you pretend to keep her alive with false loyalty to Father

    Pitiful

    I wonder what she will say when we bring her back

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    2. I don't think Wolf died to protect that thing. In the end I think she knew what she was really protecting. People who actually cared about her. Not some thing that throws away it's supposed "children" when it gets bored of them.

      It's not Fell's fault that Wolf died. Her death already hurts enough without you rubbing salt in old wounds.

      Just fuck off would you?

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    3. Fuck you!

      I won't fucking let you do this to her!

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    4. "I know she fucking died to protect us, to save us from that thing, but I think she did it to protect the Tailor too. If it was just about us then she would have taken us and fucked off before he ever gave her that order or the power to do it"

      Fell's own words Roy. She knows the truth, just as she should know that she has no way of stopping us.

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    5. I think protecting Faceless merely coincided with protecting Fell and Hart. Wolf knew that disobeying the Faceless bastard would put them all in danger.

      Being hunted by that thing is no way to live. I can tell you that much.

      But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I don't want to accept that she actually cared for that stupid monster. Maybe she really was just protecting...him.

      Then again, the only one who really knows what she was thinking was Wolf herself, right?

      I can't afford to doubt my thinking now. I'll believe what I believe and you can stick to your own twisted way of thinking.

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  6. The Wolf would want you to do what you want to do, Fell. I don't imagine you could ever disappoint her.

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    1. Thanks

      I wish I could fucking believe that

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  7. From what I can understand from this post, is that you've lost a loved one, I'm sorry to hear that.

    But, I just wanted to ask, I'm sorry if this comes off as weird, or mean, but...

    Is this real? You and this blog? It's just that I saw Slenderman a few night ago and it was enough to scare me half to death and I was just wondering if he was real, or am I going crazy.

    Sorry.

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    1. "I was just wondering if he was real, or am I going crazy"
      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgk-lA12FBk

      Seriously kid, start running

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    2. Oh for fuck's sake

      What the fuck good are your fucking condolences if you think this is all fake? Are you just fucking getting into character? Playing a fun fucking game?

      Fuck off!

      But if you've actually seen our boss then listen to Hart and start fucking running

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