Not
letting her sleep, for one thing. Every time she starts to drift, I wake her
back up by getting her out of the chair and either walking her around or beating
her. Of course, this means I’m not sleeping either, but I don’t feel it. I
don’t feel tired at all.
That
must be Ritter’s doing. He’s been watching rather intently since I brought her
here. I wonder if she hears him singing like I do… Probably not... but I know she’s certainly
getting her fill of singing regardless hehe. I’ve had a playlist of music going
constantly and Ryan, if you’re reading this… I decided to throw that Bluebird
song into the mix as well… I must say the confusion that registered on her face
at the switch from new wave to that was amusing
Anyway…
occasionally I get her out of the chair for the sole purpose of beating her. I’m
keeping it light thus far- only enough to bruise, not break.
I’ve
also employed the tactic of not letting her go to the bathroom. It means more
work in terms of the clean ups but effect of such degradation, I think, will be
worth it. I don’t let her wallow in her own filth for long, however. I keep her
as clean as I can, both for my own comfort and her health. I don’t want her
getting an infection, as that is something I can’t reasonably control and she
doesn’t get to die unless Ritter says so.
Om
as a variation on your suggestion, I’ve taken to humming a tune while I scrub
her clean. I chose the song Sakura for that, as it is simple and haunting. It does
seem to be making a difference. She certainly cringed a lot more anyway….
Heh…though that may be due to the quality of my voice
In
an attempt to help with the cleanliness effort, as well as to make her feel more
vulnerable and uncomfortable, I have taken her clothes. You know, she was fully
clothed in bed when I grabbed her…. Probably trying to be prepared to run hehe
Back
to my point, with the temperature the way it is here, being so exposed is no
fun
Been
giving her plenty of water… no food yet though… will have to feed her soon. I
don’t think the poor dear was eating that well before, either. She’s a skinny
little thing
Noticed
she has a little red rose tattoo low on her stomach. I’ll have to ask her about
that
What
else, what else?
Oh
yes
She
still tries to talk to me…
But aside from humming that tune and letting out a
giggle from time to time she hasn’t heard anything from me… but she will… Yes, I
think we’ll be having a little chat soon
Bluebird is maddening, huh?
ReplyDeleteIf she lasts any more that a week....she's strong, Knit. People are all fragile. I don't know if anyone can take that much for too long.
Thank you for wishing me good health, too.
You're quite welcome dear
DeleteAs for my guest...
Physically, I think she's going to last longer than she wants to.
Most of what she's going through now, I have gone through and handled myself. I'm actually being careful not to push her too far too fast. To that extent, my tactics are about to change. I am going to let her rest tonight and maybe tomorrow so that she can be coherent for the next step.
Mentally, on the other hand.... well we'll just have to wait and see.
I'm glad your feeling confidiant in your work. I'm looking forward to hearing what you two talk about.
ReplyDeleteSee you around
-Caged
Thank you Om. I'm trying my best to take a methodical, rational approach to this.
DeleteBy the way, I notice that you are signing off as Caged. You did this the last time you commented too. Does reading this give Cage something of an extra outlet?
Heh, you could say that, not the reading so much as the fact that I'm offering either suggestions or congradulations for torture of a woman who is, to my knowledge, not guilty of anything particuarly bad. But it's not as though I don't manage to keep myself under control anyways. It's just a place where that part of my psyche took on a larger role than usual. Of course my sign-off is largely irrelevant anyways, but it helps me to know what's going on in my own head, so I type it out.
DeleteSee you around
-Cage
It sounds like you're well on your way to getting it done, that's for sure.
ReplyDeleteThank you Cat, I'd like to think so
DeleteAnd thanks again for the switchblade. It came in handy earlier