My nerves have been on edge since Kelevra showed up. Fell was pissed off
for a while, but now things are back to normal for her. Wolf actually seemed
pretty happy about the visit. Dude just barged in here like he owned the place
and Wolf is cool with that. She even gave him cookies and did him a favor. I don't even
I guess I probably shouldn't be surprised anymore. I just think he’s a really creepy guy and if he can get in here then
others probably can too. It feels like being back with Falcon and Osprey. I
feel like any minute someone is going to appear and tear the head off of me. I
guess it was pretty stupid to let myself pretend that I was safe for a while.
I also can't sleep because I’m sore as all hell. When I woke up this morning I heard music
outside. I went out to see that Wolf had Fell in her arms. That Azoth. Skein
was coming out from under her shirt and was lifting them off the ground like a sort of weird dance. They were both laughing when
they came back down. Wolf even had to wipe away some tears as she let Fell go.
Wolf set
her eyes on me then and asked if I was ready to do some training. As soon as I
said yes it was on and I was dodging Azoth along with Fell. After we were done
and I had been hit with more fists and tentacles than a Japanese schoolgirl, we
were about to head back inside when the boss appeared next to Wolf. His
tentacles surrounded her for a few moments, then retracted. Then she gave him a
hug. I don’t know why she did that but the boss tolerated it until she let go,
then he disappeared.
So
anybody want to talk? I’d normally be talking to Wolf and Fell at this hour, but they’re, uh, busy with
each other right now and Monster isn’t much of a talker.
-Hart
-Hart
Alright, let's talk Harty, your favorite psychologist is here.
ReplyDeleteTell me what were you more afraid of? Me, knowing the background that I have? Or the fact that I just barged in there with no repercussions what so ever?
Shit. Well of course you would have to comment on this. Okay fine. A little of column A; a little of column B. I guess if I really had to choose one, it would be because of your background. Though I can't say that I liked the idea of you being able to just show up with no repercussions either
DeleteI'll be honest with you Harty, during my visit, the biggest thing I wanted...was to staple Fell's mouth shut. But after I got used to her, which took me about 10 seconds, I was interested in you.
DeleteTo be more precise I wanted to attack, you have no idea how much I wanted to attack all of you, I hope you don't take it as an insult or anything, I just enjoy wrecking havoc wherever I go. Especially if it's one of Marshmallow's "Special" spots.
Harty, I didn't get to know you too well during my visit, I bet we will hang out together in the future, I mean you were so shy when I came in, you only spoke up when I mentioned Rose. Tell me, does the theme of "Friends being murdered in cold blood" somehow touch your nerves? I bet it does, why else would you speak up? You are an interesting cookie, as I said, hope to hang out with you in the near future, looking forward to it.
I thought so. So if you wanted to attack then why didn't you? Did you only hold off because of that favor?
DeleteI won't take that as an insult if you don't take it as an insult that I would really really prefer not to hang out with you again, dude.
I'm really not that interesting. You would probably get more out of studying a baked potato
I didn't do it, because Knitty asked me to and I respect Knitty, so it's her house, her rules. Respect, my friend, all it is.
DeleteMinxie used to say the same thing.
Again, I thought the same way of Minxie, I am appy to say that I was wrong, she turned out to be a very interesting game piece, not to mention a good friend. So I learned that every person is interesting, every person has hidden potential, just like Minxie did. Now I woul try to help you uncover it, but that is Knitty's responsibility, I don't steal.
I'm still not interesting. Just slightly more murderous. That's not interesting in this day and age. You need a lot more spark than me to be interesting.
DeleteIf you really respect her then why did you decide to not only appear in her home without her letting you in, but pop up behind her like a jack in the box from hell? Where was the respect there?
DeleteRespect is not the same as etiquette.
DeleteYeah but I'm not talking about using the wrong fork for a salad. I think breaking into someone's home goes a bit past bad etiquette
DeleteI wanted to surprise her, it's not like she didn't know I was coming, I expressed my desire to meet her on numerous occasions and I tend to keep my word, she knew that.
DeleteYou however, did not, you know why? Cause you're always too nervous to find things out. Not my problem really.
Using the correct fork is YOUR concept of etiquette shaped by the environment you were brought up in. My grandmother Roza used to have a mini freak out when someone shook her hand through a doorway. She would have preferred you to step straight inside her house. Different people have different standards of etiquette.
Delete... I guess so
DeleteCalavera, thank you for respecting my rules.
DeleteI must say, if it weren't for my current to-do list I would have loved the opportunity to fight you... Damn it! I bet that would have been a lot of fun too. Ah well. I still quite enjoyed the conversation and I hope you did as well.
The Slender Man shows up uninvited and makes us lose sleep, and you serve him. Kelevra does the exact same thing and you complain about it. I think you need to analyse the double standard there.
ReplyDeleteKelevra shows up uninvited where I am, and bear in mind I move around a lot and I have no idea how he finds me, either he keeps track of me or he beats up someone else who does, no idea. Anyway, you get used to it and in the end it's kinda cool, it's like having a bandaged guardian angel that only occasionally decides to piss on you.
Yeah well maybe it is a double standard but at least with my boss I can hold on to the illusion that we have a deal. I know he doesn't have to honor it, but the fact that he has til now makes me feel a little bit better about his visits.
Delete"Illusion" is a fine word Harty, you know what else happens ti Illusions? One day, they dissolve into nothingness and one day that illusion will dissolve and Marshmallow won't have any use for you, no more.
DeleteNow I know Knitty is prepared to die for Marshmallow, Fell will follow everything Knitty does. But how about you? Where are you with all of this? Why do you have loyalty to Marshmallow? Or maybe you don't? Maybe you just stay, because it's safe there, you have two good friends there looking over you, training you, you're in your comfort zone.
Incognito was also in his comfort zone, look what happened when those things crumble down.
I know, but for now it's letting me live to see another day, so I'm going with it.
DeleteI started serving the faceless wonder so he wouldn't kill me. I stay partly for the feeling of safety but also because of Wolf and Fell.
Wolf is prepared to die for him, Fell is prepared to die for her and I'm prepared to die for the two of them. I'm scared and I don't want to die, but I would still do it for them. They're my friends.
If you're aware that the safety of servitude is an illusion, how can you hold onto it? That is a dangerous and undignified way of thinking.
DeleteYeah. I never said it was a great way to do things.
DeleteBesides, like I said, it's not my only reason
I never said it was your only reason.
DeleteYou're right though, it is a fucking stupid reason.
She's right you know, I mean fear limits us, you are clearly afraid of Marshmallow, how can you possibly look yourself in the mirror and enjoy life, when you're desires are limited by Fear. You clearly don't want to be stuck there with Knitty and Fell and you clearly don't want to serve Marshmallow. Why do it then? Knitty does it, because that is her life purpose. Fell does it, because Knitty does it, that is HER life purpose. What is yours Harty? Survival isn't a purpose, it's an excuse to stay in this world, a lousy one at that.
DeleteMinxie was lost, just like you, now she found her purpose, her father, find the truth, find him and kill him. How did she find her purpose? By trying new things, she was constantly moving, traveling from one point through another, meeting different people, experiencing new emotions, forming her own ideologies.
How can you possibly do all of that, being stuck in one place? Huh?
Hey, I also have a purpose to destabilise the criminal underworld and maybe contribute to the fight. Because my god, it needs some destabilising.
DeleteThose are impossible things, I know, but the fact they're impossible just means I have something to keep going for until I get my comeuppance.
Now you're learning! I'm proud.
DeleteI feel an urge to learn faster because... pressure.
DeleteBy the way. You said on Artsyom's blog that Dimir owned the police around here. The police are after me. If I don't get handed over to Artsyom, what is the alternative?
Yeah the situation with my boss is pretty craptastic but I do care about being here with Wolfie and Fell. Like I said, they're my friends and I care about them enough that I would die for them.
DeleteOther than that, I guess I don't know about my purpose yet
Time to find out, now isn't it, Harty? Doesn't mean you have to abandon Knitty and Motormouth, it just means that you have to get out more.
DeleteAs for you Minxie, I don't know, he'll probably kidnap you to attract both Artyomka and Incogny into a trap, dragging me along the way, since I can't let Incognito die just yet. Or he might just kill you off.
I'm fucked. :'(
DeleteSanna: Aren't we all?
DeleteHart: That means a lot to me. Thank you.
Oh come on dear, isn't it obvious why I hugged him? Ritter hugs are awesome!
ReplyDeleteAwesomely creepy and painful maybe
DeleteOh now now, it's wonderful.
DeleteHe is thin enough so you can get your arms around him and with those long arms and tentacles he can wrap you right up to squeeze you back
Oh yeah I can definitely see the appeal of that especially what with the freezing and burning and crushing. Clearly I've been missing out
DeleteDefinitely! Honestly, I don't know how anyone could resist sliding over for a cuddle.
DeleteBesides, what can I say? I like the skinny bastard and I am in no way hugging him because it pisses him off. No. Certainly not.