So Tired

Don’t know how to begin. I meant to make a post last night but…..

Sunshine was online… My Sunshine… He was drunk

He said he didn’t know what was real. Said he had a gun. He wanted to die

Told him not to… To put the gun down and sleep

Told him I loved him. Told him he was not just a “cancer” as he had put it

He started taking painkillers. And he was drunk

I begged him not to but he did

Broke my heart… Told him he was breaking my heart

I don’t know if he’s dead or alive

The last thing he said was that Ritter was taking hold of him

Was holding him down

It’s funny it’s so funny I never thought that he could really hurt me…

Cause me some physical pain? Kill me? Sure. But never really hurt me

But he did…. by hurting himself

I can only hope he’s still alive and still himself…

Guess you were probably expecting a different post

I’ll get to the recap of the days since my last post as soon as I can

Just can’t do it right now