Orders

I remember what I’m supposed to do… It came to me while I was asleep.

Ritter told me, back when he took me; when I knew most keenly what it was to lose myself.

It was among the other compulsions and intents he filled my mind with.

I also know why he’s been keeping me here like this….

My dear employer was giving me time to remember it on my own; to let my mind heal itself

How sweet

But of course, that isn’t the only reason… Oh Hell no

This was a threat to ensure that I would do as ordered. He could just keep me here like this forever if he wanted to… He could also make things much worse. .

I… I don’t know if I can do it

Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t gone soft. If he wanted me to kill someone, wonderful. Torture in and of itself would be just dandy too, be it for information or for its own sake.  

But this…

I know there are others who do this kind of thing… and I don’t judge them for it, for various reasons but this new task carries bitter memories for me

I think Ritter knows that… Probably why he wants me to do it

I need to think about this